My husband and I had a date-in-the-basement this afternoon, watching a movie on Netflix while the kids entertained themselves. We watched a movie about a young teacher in a difficult situation, who inspired her students to greatness. At one point in the movie, the teacher's father tells her, "You've been blessed with a burden."
What does it mean to be "blessed with a burden?" In my life, it means that my heart hurts sometimes--actually often. It means that I try to help the hurting people God brings to my attention, and that I ache for the ones I can't help. It's a yearning for giving. It's hard because it requires more than I can do on my own strength, but the joy in the journey is greater than the pain.
My prayer for my children is that they will be "blessed with a burden," and that their hearts will ache for the hurting people God puts in their path. Psalm 37:4 says, "Delight yourself in The Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart." I pray that my children will delight themselves in The Lord and recognize the desires, the yearnings, and the burdens he places in their hearts. I want them to experience what I've learned, that God puts desires in my heart, and then fulfills those Godly desires. He gave me a yearning to help kids with special needs, and then sent me kids with special needs. But the yearning is still there, and I don't know if it will ever go away. My kids with special needs have healed so much that they don't really seem like they have special needs anymore. They are just amazing, self-motivated, responsible, studious, all around great kids (albeit somewhat sloppy--a lot like their mother, I'm afraid).
I think about people who have different yearnings than mine. Not everyone is called to adopt kids with special needs. God has placed different desires in their hearts, and I wouldn't want to be burdened to do the work he has given them. Rejoice if you have been "blessed with a burden," and if you haven't, delight yourself in The Lord and he will put that longing in your heart.